The Paranoia Of Personal Growth

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Are you ready, ready to release internal pain to find confidence, clarity and direction for your future, to live a life of meaning, fulfillment and contribution to trust your intuition again, but something's been holding you back. You've come to the right place. Welcome. I'm a Ian Hawkins, the host and founder of The Grief Code podcast. Together, let's heal your unresolved or unknown grief by unlocking your grief code. As you tune into each episode, you will receive insight into your own grief, how to eliminate it and what to do next. Before we start by one request, if any new insights or awareness land with you during this episode, please send me an email at info at the Ian Hawkins coaching.com. And let me know what you found. I know the power of this word. I love to hear the impact these conversations have. Okay, let's get into it.

Have you ever had that thought? Feeling? I'm on the Truman Show. I'm on Candid Camera like is this is this real? Those moments where everything just seems a little bit too. Perfect. So those coincidences or synchronicities pop up and you're like, Hey, man, this, this is too good to be true. Because we're told that right? If it thinks if it feels like it's too good to be true, it probably is. Well, when you get through personal growth, that changes. We call it personal growth or the awakening process awakening to who you are, you truly are. As you peel back the layers, there is an element of paranoia that plays out. And you may be familiar with it. I want to tell you that it's completely normal. You're not losing your mind. You're not on the Truman Show. But you are growing. And you are inviting into your world, those moments of synchronicity. When it feels like everything's falling into your lap. The art is to be able to not get caught in your head and then block that off, which is often what happens. I can remember the very first time I signed up for a paid program. I remember making a commitment that I was going to do it went up there sort of halfway through the day and I said, Yep, I'm definitely doing this. And then the the daily event continued, I went back into the crowd, and then my brain just went haywire. Overdrive went haywire wind overdrive. I'm thinking is this person that's now just decided to talk to me now? Like, is he planted there? Like I've just said, I'm gonna sign up to this. And now suddenly, he's been sitting there all day. And now he's talking to me. Like, is this whole thing a joke? And then as I left there that day, I'm like, is someone following me? But weird thoughts, right, but I'm sure you've had those moments where, where things have just unfolded, where you're like, This is too weird, like what's going on? And it's normal. It's absolutely mean absolutely normal. Everyone that I've spoken to, that's gone through this has had moments like this. So if you haven't had them yet, just know that they're there and that they will come and just be okay with it. Because you're not going crazy. Just address those those things. In, in their individual cases, the person talking to me, he's like, Oh, okay. This person said, been sitting next to me, he's actually committed and he's gone. And he's gonna make a commitment to himself to actually spend this money on himself. He might be someone worth talking to. And he did call somebody and shifted around me and now I wasn't closed off. And he was prepared to talk to me. Nothing to be paranoid about. But it's amazing where the mind goes. So in those moments, what you're actually being shown is some kind of fear that's sitting in your system from a moment from your past. A moment where things did just seem to fall into place, and you should have paid attention, and you didn't. And you looked back later and said, Oh, I should have seen the signs.

From Mars, you're probably quite young. You probably didn't know any better. And you did the best you could in no circumstances. Problem is you get to an adult where you do know better, and you do logically know the situation. But that old pattern of fear still comes into play. Do you imagine that imagine comparing yourself logically to that youngster that only knew what they knew. They'd be crazy. Well, you'd never do it. But that's what happens when these patterns play out. We compare ourselves. Why, why? Why am I reacting this way? Why am I doing this? Well, because that's how your younger version of you that four year old version of you reacted. And the pattern still playing out. It's not helpful anymore. They helped you at the time, but it's not helpful now. So it's okay that you're going to have those emotions come up, it's okay. They're going to have those thoughts. It's an awareness now that there's something else that needs to be made peace with. That we start rewriting the story, identify the moment if you can. If you can't, that's okay. rewrite the story. Anyway, I've acknowledged this has happened. Next time that happens, I'm going to remind myself logically that everything's as it should be. When you're on a growth journey. Everything is working out. Sometimes it feels like everything's falling apart, but actually, everything's falling into place. So there is a lot of conversations you need to have with yourself over this time as you continue to grow, to remind yourself just how strong you are, and the things are working out. And if you keep moving forward and keep growing, keep making peace with your past and you will get to that future that you desire. I promise you that.

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