Episode Summary – FIND YOUR LOST LADY BUG AND SMILE! In Episode 71 of the Shining Brightly Podcast Show (links in the comments), titled “THE DARKNESS OF CHILD ABUSE TO EMOTIONAL FREEDOM” I am joined by the courageous Regina LaFrance who speaks her long-hidden truth after suffering abuse and pedophile rape from a priest in her village. We walked with Shayla in that darkness for over four decades. In 2019 after hearing a young child object to going to summer camp, she knew she needed to share her story with the world. We must PAY ATTENTION to our young people and allow them to be heard to share abuse and find safety wand work towards healing over time. Come meet our Shining Diamond Ladybug. This is a powerful show about suffering, human resolve, resilience and looking in the mirror every day saying – “I am enough with a smile” Please listen, download, share and review this incredible episode.
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About the guest – Author Regina LaFrance has come a long way since leaving her native small village. A place she called home until tragedy struck. Drawing from her direct experience, her semi-autographical novel, Shayla, is a depiction of the events that happened when she was violently raped as a young girl by a pedophile priest in her community. Her tell-all book further speaks to the deep-seeded wounds and trauma that have followed into her adult life as striving to reinvent herself and find healing. Shayla is LaFrance’s sharing, and ultimate hope, for others who have been molested and suffered from abuse. Passionate in the resolve of this issue, LaFrance has made it her ongoing effort to prevent the unthinkable from happening to more innocent children. She resides in North Carolina with her husband, Dan, a retired fire lieutenant. Both are transplants from Boston where they met.
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Howard Brown is a best-selling author, award-winning international speaker, Silicon Valley entrepreneur, interfaith peacemaker, and a two-time stage IV cancer survivor. He is also a sought-after speaker and consultant for corporate businesses, nonprofits, congregations, and community groups. Howard has co-founded two social networks that were the first to connect religious communities around the world. He is a nationally known patient advocate and “cancer whisperer” to many families. Howard, his wife Lisa, and daughter Emily currently reside in Michigan, and his happy place is on the basketball court.
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Hello, it's Howard Brown. It's the Shining Brightly
Show. I am so glad you are with us today I we're going to cover
a pretty intense topic today. And you know that if you've been
listening to me or know anything about me that my book shining
brightly talks deeply about walking in darkness, and then
finding a light to be able to lift up yourself then lift up
others. Well, I have a such an amazing and important guests
with me. I want to introduce you to Regina France. Regina, how
are you? And thank you for coming on my show. I am well and
thank you for having me. I appreciate being here today.
Excellent. Well, I'm excited because I just watched your
trailer you have a book that just came out in early February.
So one of your early podcasts to help promote you and the story.
Let me just read a quick bio about yourself. Author Regina
France has come a long way since leaving her native small
village, a place she called home until tragedy struck. Drawing
from her direct direct experience. Her semi
autobiographical novel Shayla is a depiction of the events that
happen when she was violently raped as a young girl by a
paedophile priest in her community. Her tell all book
further speaks to the deep seated wounds and the trauma
that have followed her into her adult life and striving to
reinvent herself and some find some healing. Shayla is the
Frances sharing and the ultimate hope for others who have been
molested and suffered from abuse. Passionate in the resolve
of this issue, the Francis made her ongoing effort to prevent
the unthinkable from happening to more innocent children. She
resides in North Carolina with her husband, Dan, retired fire
Lieutenant. And both are transplants from Boston. And so
my. So we have that in common. And I just want to welcome you
to the show. And because we talked in the greenroom, I'd
love for you to share. We're going to shine just a little bit
of brightly right now. Tell me about as a young girl, your dad
called you the lady bug. And then you lost the ladybug. And
then you got to back talk talk talk tell my audience about
that.
As far as I can remember from being around six
years old to about nine. I always like being outside. And
my father was a farmer. So my sister was more like, stay home
with mom stay inside do house chores with Mom and I was always
outside. I was very, very small. And in the summertime, I was
very dark and I had long, dark hair. So my father called me
Ladybug, and my father, my mom used to tell me that I was the
cutest Ladybug she had ever seen. So being a ladybug was
very, very special. I would go looking for them and try to have
them as my little baby ladybugs and, and one everytime I found
one I'll bring to my dad. And he would say that. Now be careful,
don't don't be hurt and led by because it was so small and
fragile like I was. When I was nine years old, I began to be
molested by someone that was a person of power in the village.
My parents wanted me to learn music to play an instrument and
the person who was the local priest of the village began to
molest me when I was nine. And then about a year later, he
violated me brutally sexually and physically, practically
leaving me to die. So I did survive, and through my teenage
years might want ease and my 30s and 40s. I felt like I was a
cockroach. Because the priests told me that I was no Ladybug. I
was a cockroach and that my parents would never believe me.
Again, because I was dark and had the dark here he said that I
was not pretty and that I was dumb and and stupid. And he
called me all these names. So I would believe that no one would
ever love me or care for me other than the attention that he
would give me. So all those years, including my teenage
years, my early 20s I looked for love from anyone that would talk
to me or give me attention. I was always looking for someone
to care for me or love me. And I was always going above and
beyond to do things for other people so they would they would
love me. And it wasn't until I had an experience in 2003
15 I had a vivid memory of me telling my Mother, please don't
make me go. Because one of my clients came in and told me that
she was very stressed out because a little girl that
didn't want to go to summer camp that year. And the little girl
cried, and said, Mommy, Mommy, please don't make me go, I don't
want to go anymore. And at that moment, I had to terminate the
session, my heart was pounding, my palms were sweaty, and I had
to leave. Because I remembered asking my mother to not let me
go. And that's when everything changed. I began to write about
my experience and my abuse. So my intent was to create
awareness, people raising children to look out for those
signs. And when I did that, I discovered that I began my own
healing. And when I wrote about being a ladybug, I went to the
mirror. And I told myself, that it wasn't my fault. And the
little girl inside of me was still hurting. So I began
learning how to nurture my little girl inside my inner
child. And when I did that, I discovered that it wasn't my
fault. I had to tell myself and learn a new lifestyle. And when
I did that, I began to discover how wonderful it was to be a
ladybug and the love that I felt when my dad and my dad fell for
me, and everything around me changed. All the people that I
love, and all the people around me, just begin to notice the
change in me and how happy I become in how wonderful my life
started to be. And now, I can take any situation at all, it
makes it shine like a diamond. I am a happy person, and I want to
go into the world and tell everyone that is still hard, and
that they also can shine. And they can become who they were
originally intended to be like, for me, I want to be that
Ladybug, and I want to make it be known that it wasn't my
fault.
Thank you for sharing that. So for those that
are listening, you're wearing a red shirt, you actually have a
little bit of red on your necklace. And you are a shining
Ladybug, and thank you for for sharing that. The metaphor that
many people use is that they they go into a caterpillar,
Caterpillar is not always attractive. They're fuzzy and
creepy crawlers, but eventually, that caterpillar can be a
beautiful butterfly, and you have gone. And you are that
beautiful lady bugs. So I just want to tell you that and but I
want to take you back right now, and just share briefly, but
because I watched the trailer, and I'm going to actually allow,
you know, in the show notes and on the social media posts of
people to click on the trailer, it's about a seven minute kind
of short movie about the book and about your experience. It's
very powerful. It's very deep. You know, you were a little
girl, you were a little girl. And people looked up to the
priest in the village. He not only was the religious leader,
he was the music instructor, he had great respect. And so take
us through a little bit, just give us a you know, a tease from
the book and from that about, about what you remember and what
you want to share.
That priest was actually the priest of the
people. He was very good to the people. He was a good speaker.
He was a professor, he was an author. And he was the priest
that will do anything for anyone in the village. He did have a
reputation of wanting to be with women. And he did have a
reputation of having had a woman a young lady, as his mistress
before he he attacked me that young lady was able to get away.
And then he began to molest me. obody in the village would say
anything. Everyone, I don't want to say worshipped him, but
everyone liked him a lot. And people just look the other way.
And I know while I believe then that if I said anything to my
parents, my parents being old fashioned and being proud to be
followers of him would probably say Don't be telling anybody
that
you're a 10 year old girl, as this is
unthinkable, you can't share it with anybody. And you're telling
your mom, you don't want to go to music lessons, you don't want
to actually, you know, be in here and learn from him. And he
impregnated you as a 10 year old little girl. Yes. I am revolted.
I am about to go into tears. I, you're a little 10 year old
girl. And when I saw on the video and read excerpts of the
book, you took this in just an abominable way as the 10 year
old aborted and he made you actually bury the foetus. Yes.
And told you you were a cockroach. Yes.
And the night that we were at the cemetery,
he, his mother and the neighbour had performed an abortion on me
on the kitchen table. And I had a lot of pain that day. So she
gave me a box and told me to go with him. And we went to the
cemetery and, and I remember being in so much pain, he made
me dig a hole with the box in the hole and then abort into the
box. And then he told me to cover the hole with the dirt.
And at that moment, I told him, I was crying a lot. And I told
him, I hated him so much. And he came over and he slapped me. And
I fell on the edge of the shovel. And I cut my face right
here. I have a big scar right here that from that fall. And
for all those years, not only I thought I was a cockroach, I
compared myself to one I hated my face. Because that scar was a
constant reminder of what had happened there that night. It
was a nightmare. I was so sad. And I cried a lot, then his
mother cared for me. And she promised me that that would
never happen again. And I always felt that she meant it, it would
never happen again. But she just like any other family at that
time that she wanted to protect her family, not to shame her son
and not to shame herself possibly. And I really believe
that. If my parents had found out, they would also say Don't
tell anybody, and then we'll just cover up. So the family
wouldn't be shamed. Because back then that's I was no one was
allowed to talk about anything of that nature.
And as you went into your teenage years, you
carry this in silence.
I carry it in silence. And to make matters
worse, my last two or three years of high school, he was
actually a teacher at the high school. And he was the history
in a Portuguese teacher. And I never talked to him again. And I
never did any work for his class. And he always passed me.
I always he always gave me passing rates. But I never
talked to him again since since that time. But even during my
1112 years old, my parents still made me go to church. It wasn't
until a little later. Maybe possibly when I was 1314. I
refused to go to church. And that's when my father and I had
a falling out. My father was so disappointed with me as a
teenager, that he could never speak with me again, or direct
his war to me. I lived in the same house. But we never talked.
And when I was 18, I had the opportunity of coming to the
United States. So I left I never looked back. Good. Did your mom
and dad or even your sister they didn't know. Nobody knew. Nobody
knew even now. Even now I'm 60 years old. My sister is 63 years
old when she found out about this. And when she found out
that I was going to write my book and publish my book, she
asked me why now. Why are you having your Why are you putting
yourself through this exposure to the world? And I explained to
her why because I want to create awareness. So other children
possibly don't go through something like that. And she
understood. She understood she she asked me a lot of questions
and she understood and she supports me now. My main concern
is that little girls and little boys as well go through
something like this because the mean vicious, creepy people out
there are always going to be coming around looking for an
innocent child so they can get their way with them. And the
parents can never believed that another human being would hurt
their children that way. But they do.
So, tell me about putting your memories and your
thoughts in writing this book. You told me that you regained
your ladybug, it was healing for you. How long did it take? And I
mean, I know it just published out, you know, it's available on
Amazon in February. What was it like writing and coming forth
with with all these feelings that have been deeply buried for
in 2015, when I had my flashback, I wrote about
two years,
eight to 10,000 words. But at the time, I didn't know how to
write a book, I didn't think I could put it together. So I put
it away. I put it away. And I never, I never looked back, I
was too shameful still, to talk about it, I didn't want people
to look at me as that cockroach, a person that was less than I
wanted to shine. So I just had this, this image of myself on
the outside that I was wonderful. But on the inside, I
felt always sad, and depressed, and no self esteem on the
inside. So in 2000, I believe in 2019, I was talking to a person
and that woman told me that she was a book editor. And jokingly
I said to her, Oh, maybe you can edit my book someday? And she
said, What did you write about? And I did tell her and she said,
I'm gonna come over, if it's okay. And I'd like to read what
you wrote that day. She told me that I'd have to sit down and
start writing. She said, You need to tell the world, what
happened to you. And when I began to write, I began to feel
free, I began to feel alive, I began to feel that burden of
keeping that secret and being a victim started to enlighten me.
So when I was done, and I went back home, in my, in my mind, I
went back home to the place where I was hurt, and shameful.
And I retired my victim badge. I told the priest, that he no
longer rents any space in my heart, in my mind, in my soul.
And I said, You go now, and I'm relieving you are releasing you,
for me not for you, you have to go find your peace anywhere you
want. But for me, I am now free. And I discovered the self love
and shine like a diamond feeling. And then my mission
became from wanting to create awareness for to keep children
safe, but also to spread the light to spread the happiness
for people that may still be hardened inside.
Well, we definitely have that we're
aligned and we want to illuminate and shine shine that
as well. You mentioned when I asked you about the ladybug in
the cockroach, that in 2015, there was a young girl that did
not want to go to summer camp. And that triggered that little
girl in you that she was probably being abused by someone
at camp a camp counsellor, or somebody right? And she did not
want to go. I would say that you are really now trying to what
signs should families look for, to protect their children from
from this abuse? Because I have done very little research. But I
heard that abuse usually happens from someone close could be an
uncle, it could be a family member, a brother, it could be
somebody could be it doesn't have to be just a male could be
a woman to what what do they need to look for.
So for a young child, boy or girl, if they say
they don't want to go somewhere and if they cry, and they want
to hang on to mum or dad's leg. Be very aware, because children
love to go places. And children love to play in and be involved
in activities. If they don't want to go, that's number one.
If they shy away from someone, that's another sign. Children
don't know how to speak verbally, especially if the
abuser is telling them if they if you tell anybody, I'm going
to hurt you. This is our special secret. I'm going to hurt you
more. I'm going to hurt your mom or your sister or your brother.
So the first one would be if that child is clinging to mom
and dad and just does not want to go and if you ask what's
happening, sweetie. And that child doesn't say anything.
That's it, something is happening. Now a young teenager,
well, 13, if they went from having good grades and being a
happy child, and now something is happening, they are going
through something, whether it's bullying at school, or they have
an eating disorder, or they may be doing experimenting with
drugs or something like that, you need to pay attention. And
you need to take time off your busy schedule, and spend time
with that young boy or young girl to find out what they're
doing. If there's stress going on in the home, and the 12 1314
year old, is not getting what they need from mom and dad. They
are suffering, and they're looking for attention someplace
else. So we need to be very aware, take the focus off
ourselves. Because a mum and dad might be even considering
divorce, they may be in a very stressful job situation, they
may be having financial difficulties, it could be a
number of things, that young men and young lady they're going to
suffer as a result of what mum and dad are going through. So be
very aware, because that's a very critical age 12 1314 For
young girl or young boy, to just go down the wrong path. And, and
once they hit that bottom, and they suffer some trauma, when
they are 1819 20, they're gonna carry that on. So those are the
things that I would say, if you are in charge of raising a
child, it could be a teacher, it could be a daycare provider, it
could be grandparents, it could be foster parents. It could be
anyone if a child is around and that child is so unsigned,
showing signs of distress, that's when you have to say some
things out. If you're a teacher, and the child is falling asleep
in the classroom, there's something there's something
going on, on that child's life. And those are the things that I
want to create awareness.
Thank you for sharing that. What are you doing
now in your daily routine that's helping your healing.
So, right now I am doing gardening, I am doing
wonderful, beautiful recipes.
I am speaking with people that I would never speak with before.
Everywhere I go, I shine, someone will look up at me and
I'll smile said hi. And people immediately just say hi back,
people give me a lot of compliments. Now, because of the
way that I just walk around, I have people come across the
store, just to tell me that they like my hair, or, or or
something like that. And I immediately make a connection.
So what I do now, I do a lot of listening. And a lot of
observing. We have two of these into these. We have one of
these. And that's what I do. Now I smile a lot. But I talk a lot
less now. I like to listen, I like to know what's going on.
I'm very observant of what's going on around me. And I as I
meet people, I can tell almost always the ones that have
something and they want to talk. They want to talk. Most of them
they will want to talk to me along and they want to tell me
their secret. But I will tell you this that when I mentioned
the healing, you lit off glow, your smile your shine. And so in
my book in shining brightly I wrote what you just told me
about your healing process. I call it we call it all something
different. I call it finding your happy place. Yes,
finding your happy place that your stress free zone
that brings you joy in your life. Yes, mine's the basketball
court. But I also love hiking and biking and I love nature.
Some people like as you said, cooking, art, yoga, meditation.
I always say find your happy place and go there. And also
what I take back from that as your awareness now is so fine
tuned. Yes, it's really really fine tuned. Would you like to I
mean, you speak in the book about Emotional Freedom. share
it share more about how you're gaining emotional freedom now
that you've come and shared, shared Shayla Who is you? And
you are Shayla
Yes.
What would you share about how to achieve some
emotional freedom.
So some people might say to me, Well, it's good
for your Regina that they were able to find your way. But I'm
still living with my abuser, or my parents are my abuse abusers.
Or somebody might say you have the ladybug years with your
father. All I remember was my parents being alcoholics and
being abusive. So I am very blessed that I can go back and
remember my Ladybug years, what I say to these people, is look
in the mirror and find something that you love, you love to do.
And when you can get out, either get away from your abuser or
find a little bit of time, go and go do that for yourself.
Whether it's hiking, or gardening, or go, I don't know,
go go to the theatre, or go draw somewhere, find that time to be
alone, and write down the things that you love. And then one at a
time, baby steps, go to you to pull up the IAM affirmations and
start telling yourself I am I worthy, I am wonderful. I am
enough. When I listened to those for the first time, when the
YouTube video voice said I am enough, I broke down. And now I
want to tell everybody, you are enough. You too can shine.
Because we have to go love who we are inside. And when we love
who we are, what I did was I created an imaginary bubble
around me. And anybody is allowed in my bubble. But they
have to bring smiles, love sunshine, and just pure pure
love. You can be negative, you can complain, you can say
whatever you want. I'm not gonna say anything, I am not going to
engage, and you're not coming in my bubble.
I want to add to that I talked in my book about
isolation. And I understand that I call that walking in darkness
to learn from the darkness. But I don't want people to stay in
that if you stayed in that isolation. So long, Regina, it
was just for years and years and years decades who stayed in that
darkness. So I don't want people to stay there too long. The
other thing that I advise in my survivorship coaching is to be
selfish in your time of need. And the other thing is to seek
help, but also to take the spotlight off yourself. I found
by me when I was able to help others. I wasn't always thinking
about cancer and thinking about my mortality or thinking about
I'm not going to be able to walk my daughter down the aisle. But
when you lift up yourself and get yourself in a place where
you can lift up others that makes the world a better place.
And that that's one of my mantras and all that certainly
agree. So I want I'm going to I'm going to actually put the
sunglasses on here we're going to enter in part of the show
here called the shine. Oh look at those fancy. For those that
are listening. Regina is wearing some really cool sunglasses and
I've got my shiny metallic white glasses on as well. This is the
shining brightly spotlight. Regina tell people the best way
to get a hold of you. And then share a little bit of
inspiration with me and kick it back over to me to close out the
show.
Okay, so LaFrance media.com It's LA and
France like the country media.com la France. You can
read about me, you can read everything about my story and
details. If you'd like to, you can reach out to my publicist,
through the website, and Facebook, Shayla, the book that
does all and go to YouTube and look up shayla book trailer. So
you can watch my seven minute video. And if I could leave
everyone with something is look in the mirror and say I am
enough. And remember we have two of these and two of these in one
of these. So let's listen more. Let's observe more and no
response is a response. You don't have to react to
everything that you hear or everything that someone may say
to you that you may not like let them handle what it is that they
like or don't like, instead within yourself with love for self
Beautiful? Well, I thank you. I know that the book
is, it's intense. It's powerful. It teaches. It's your heart, and
you are a shining Ladybug. And so thank you for being here and
sharing your story. And I don't know, you probably helped
countless people and your book will be made into a movie. I
feel it. I feel in my bones.
Yes.
Yeah. So thank you for watching or listening, the
shining brightly show, I give a shout out to the people that
sponsor and lift me up my publisher financial publishing,
read the spirit magazine, my podcast house, the amplify you
network. And just thank you for your support. And you can reach
me at shining brightly.com And you can find out about my book
and you can find out about my speaking my motivational
speaking, and this lovely podcast and my advocacy which is
so important to me, which is supporting entrepreneurship and
Babson College, supporting the cancer world, go get screened,
don't get cancer, live a healthy lifestyle. And lastly,
interfaith relations that makes the world just a better, more
well rounded place when you know the other so, as we always say,
to close the show, we hope that you will shine brightly for
yourself. Go lift up others in your neighbourhoods in your
communities, and the world will become a better place. Thank you.
Thank you