March 20, 2024

THE DARKNESS OF CHILD ABUSE TO EMOTIONAL FREEDOM With Regina LaFrance

THE DARKNESS OF CHILD ABUSE TO EMOTIONAL FREEDOM With Regina LaFrance

Episode Summary – FIND YOUR LOST LADY BUG AND SMILE! In Episode 71 of the Shining Brightly Podcast Show (links in the comments), titled “THE DARKNESS OF CHILD ABUSE TO EMOTIONAL FREEDOM” I am joined by the courageous Regina LaFrance who speaks her long-hidden truth after suffering abuse and pedophile rape from a priest in her village. We walked with Shayla in that darkness for over four decades. In 2019 after hearing a young child object to going to summer camp, she knew she needed to share her story with the world. We must PAY ATTENTION to our young people and allow them to be heard to share abuse and find safety wand work towards healing over time. Come meet our Shining Diamond Ladybug. This is a powerful show about suffering, human resolve, resilience and looking in the mirror every day saying – “I am enough with a smile” Please listen, download, share and review this incredible episode. 

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About the guest – Author Regina LaFrance has come a long way since leaving her native small village.  A place she called home until tragedy struck.  Drawing from her direct experience, her semi-autographical novel, Shayla, is a depiction of the events that happened when she was violently raped as a young girl by a pedophile priest in her community.  Her tell-all book further speaks to the deep-seeded wounds and trauma that have followed into her adult life as striving to reinvent herself and find healing. Shayla is LaFrance’s sharing, and ultimate hope, for others who have been molested and suffered from abuse.  Passionate in the resolve of this issue, LaFrance has made it her ongoing effort to prevent the unthinkable from happening to more innocent children. She resides in North Carolina with her husband, Dan, a retired fire lieutenant. Both are transplants from Boston where they met.


About the Host:

Howard Brown is a best-selling author, award-winning international speaker, Silicon Valley entrepreneur, interfaith peacemaker, and a two-time stage IV cancer survivor. He is also a sought-after speaker and consultant for corporate businesses, nonprofits, congregations, and community groups. Howard has co-founded two social networks that were the first to connect religious communities around the world. He is a nationally known patient advocate and “cancer whisperer” to many families. Howard, his wife Lisa, and daughter Emily currently reside in Michigan, and his happy place is on the basketball court.


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Transcript
Howard Brown:

Hello, it's Howard Brown. It's the Shining Brightly



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Show. I am so glad you are with us today I we're going to cover



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a pretty intense topic today. And you know that if you've been



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listening to me or know anything about me that my book shining



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brightly talks deeply about walking in darkness, and then



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finding a light to be able to lift up yourself then lift up



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others. Well, I have a such an amazing and important guests



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with me. I want to introduce you to Regina France. Regina, how



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are you? And thank you for coming on my show. I am well and



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thank you for having me. I appreciate being here today.



Howard Brown:

Excellent. Well, I'm excited because I just watched your



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trailer you have a book that just came out in early February.



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So one of your early podcasts to help promote you and the story.



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Let me just read a quick bio about yourself. Author Regina



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France has come a long way since leaving her native small



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village, a place she called home until tragedy struck. Drawing



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from her direct direct experience. Her semi



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autobiographical novel Shayla is a depiction of the events that



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happen when she was violently raped as a young girl by a



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paedophile priest in her community. Her tell all book



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further speaks to the deep seated wounds and the trauma



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that have followed her into her adult life and striving to



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reinvent herself and some find some healing. Shayla is the



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Frances sharing and the ultimate hope for others who have been



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molested and suffered from abuse. Passionate in the resolve



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of this issue, the Francis made her ongoing effort to prevent



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the unthinkable from happening to more innocent children. She



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resides in North Carolina with her husband, Dan, retired fire



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Lieutenant. And both are transplants from Boston. And so



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my. So we have that in common. And I just want to welcome you



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to the show. And because we talked in the greenroom, I'd



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love for you to share. We're going to shine just a little bit



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of brightly right now. Tell me about as a young girl, your dad



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called you the lady bug. And then you lost the ladybug. And



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then you got to back talk talk talk tell my audience about



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that.



Regina LaFrance:

As far as I can remember from being around six



Regina LaFrance:

years old to about nine. I always like being outside. And



Regina LaFrance:

my father was a farmer. So my sister was more like, stay home



Regina LaFrance:

with mom stay inside do house chores with Mom and I was always



Regina LaFrance:

outside. I was very, very small. And in the summertime, I was



Regina LaFrance:

very dark and I had long, dark hair. So my father called me



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Ladybug, and my father, my mom used to tell me that I was the



Regina LaFrance:

cutest Ladybug she had ever seen. So being a ladybug was



Regina LaFrance:

very, very special. I would go looking for them and try to have



Regina LaFrance:

them as my little baby ladybugs and, and one everytime I found



Regina LaFrance:

one I'll bring to my dad. And he would say that. Now be careful,



Regina LaFrance:

don't don't be hurt and led by because it was so small and



Regina LaFrance:

fragile like I was. When I was nine years old, I began to be



Regina LaFrance:

molested by someone that was a person of power in the village.



Regina LaFrance:

My parents wanted me to learn music to play an instrument and



Regina LaFrance:

the person who was the local priest of the village began to



Regina LaFrance:

molest me when I was nine. And then about a year later, he



Regina LaFrance:

violated me brutally sexually and physically, practically



Regina LaFrance:

leaving me to die. So I did survive, and through my teenage



Regina LaFrance:

years might want ease and my 30s and 40s. I felt like I was a



Regina LaFrance:

cockroach. Because the priests told me that I was no Ladybug. I



Regina LaFrance:

was a cockroach and that my parents would never believe me.



Regina LaFrance:

Again, because I was dark and had the dark here he said that I



Regina LaFrance:

was not pretty and that I was dumb and and stupid. And he



Regina LaFrance:

called me all these names. So I would believe that no one would



Regina LaFrance:

ever love me or care for me other than the attention that he



Regina LaFrance:

would give me. So all those years, including my teenage



Regina LaFrance:

years, my early 20s I looked for love from anyone that would talk



Regina LaFrance:

to me or give me attention. I was always looking for someone



Regina LaFrance:

to care for me or love me. And I was always going above and



Regina LaFrance:

beyond to do things for other people so they would they would



Regina LaFrance:

love me. And it wasn't until I had an experience in 2003



Regina LaFrance:

15 I had a vivid memory of me telling my Mother, please don't



Regina LaFrance:

make me go. Because one of my clients came in and told me that



Regina LaFrance:

she was very stressed out because a little girl that



Regina LaFrance:

didn't want to go to summer camp that year. And the little girl



Regina LaFrance:

cried, and said, Mommy, Mommy, please don't make me go, I don't



Regina LaFrance:

want to go anymore. And at that moment, I had to terminate the



Regina LaFrance:

session, my heart was pounding, my palms were sweaty, and I had



Regina LaFrance:

to leave. Because I remembered asking my mother to not let me



Regina LaFrance:

go. And that's when everything changed. I began to write about



Regina LaFrance:

my experience and my abuse. So my intent was to create



Regina LaFrance:

awareness, people raising children to look out for those



Regina LaFrance:

signs. And when I did that, I discovered that I began my own



Regina LaFrance:

healing. And when I wrote about being a ladybug, I went to the



Regina LaFrance:

mirror. And I told myself, that it wasn't my fault. And the



Regina LaFrance:

little girl inside of me was still hurting. So I began



Regina LaFrance:

learning how to nurture my little girl inside my inner



Regina LaFrance:

child. And when I did that, I discovered that it wasn't my



Regina LaFrance:

fault. I had to tell myself and learn a new lifestyle. And when



Regina LaFrance:

I did that, I began to discover how wonderful it was to be a



Regina LaFrance:

ladybug and the love that I felt when my dad and my dad fell for



Regina LaFrance:

me, and everything around me changed. All the people that I



Regina LaFrance:

love, and all the people around me, just begin to notice the



Regina LaFrance:

change in me and how happy I become in how wonderful my life



Regina LaFrance:

started to be. And now, I can take any situation at all, it



Regina LaFrance:

makes it shine like a diamond. I am a happy person, and I want to



Regina LaFrance:

go into the world and tell everyone that is still hard, and



Regina LaFrance:

that they also can shine. And they can become who they were



Regina LaFrance:

originally intended to be like, for me, I want to be that



Regina LaFrance:

Ladybug, and I want to make it be known that it wasn't my



Regina LaFrance:

fault.



Howard Brown:

Thank you for sharing that. So for those that



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are listening, you're wearing a red shirt, you actually have a



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little bit of red on your necklace. And you are a shining



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Ladybug, and thank you for for sharing that. The metaphor that



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many people use is that they they go into a caterpillar,



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Caterpillar is not always attractive. They're fuzzy and



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creepy crawlers, but eventually, that caterpillar can be a



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beautiful butterfly, and you have gone. And you are that



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beautiful lady bugs. So I just want to tell you that and but I



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want to take you back right now, and just share briefly, but



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because I watched the trailer, and I'm going to actually allow,



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you know, in the show notes and on the social media posts of



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people to click on the trailer, it's about a seven minute kind



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of short movie about the book and about your experience. It's



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very powerful. It's very deep. You know, you were a little



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girl, you were a little girl. And people looked up to the



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priest in the village. He not only was the religious leader,



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he was the music instructor, he had great respect. And so take



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us through a little bit, just give us a you know, a tease from



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the book and from that about, about what you remember and what



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you want to share.



Regina LaFrance:

That priest was actually the priest of the



Regina LaFrance:

people. He was very good to the people. He was a good speaker.



Regina LaFrance:

He was a professor, he was an author. And he was the priest



Regina LaFrance:

that will do anything for anyone in the village. He did have a



Regina LaFrance:

reputation of wanting to be with women. And he did have a



Regina LaFrance:

reputation of having had a woman a young lady, as his mistress



Regina LaFrance:

before he he attacked me that young lady was able to get away.



Regina LaFrance:

And then he began to molest me. obody in the village would say



Regina LaFrance:

anything. Everyone, I don't want to say worshipped him, but



Regina LaFrance:

everyone liked him a lot. And people just look the other way.



Regina LaFrance:

And I know while I believe then that if I said anything to my



Regina LaFrance:

parents, my parents being old fashioned and being proud to be



Regina LaFrance:

followers of him would probably say Don't be telling anybody



Regina LaFrance:

that



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you're a 10 year old girl, as this is



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unthinkable, you can't share it with anybody. And you're telling



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your mom, you don't want to go to music lessons, you don't want



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to actually, you know, be in here and learn from him. And he



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impregnated you as a 10 year old little girl. Yes. I am revolted.



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I am about to go into tears. I, you're a little 10 year old



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girl. And when I saw on the video and read excerpts of the



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book, you took this in just an abominable way as the 10 year



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old aborted and he made you actually bury the foetus. Yes.



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And told you you were a cockroach. Yes.



Regina LaFrance:

And the night that we were at the cemetery,



Regina LaFrance:

he, his mother and the neighbour had performed an abortion on me



Regina LaFrance:

on the kitchen table. And I had a lot of pain that day. So she



Regina LaFrance:

gave me a box and told me to go with him. And we went to the



Regina LaFrance:

cemetery and, and I remember being in so much pain, he made



Regina LaFrance:

me dig a hole with the box in the hole and then abort into the



Regina LaFrance:

box. And then he told me to cover the hole with the dirt.



Regina LaFrance:

And at that moment, I told him, I was crying a lot. And I told



Regina LaFrance:

him, I hated him so much. And he came over and he slapped me. And



Regina LaFrance:

I fell on the edge of the shovel. And I cut my face right



Regina LaFrance:

here. I have a big scar right here that from that fall. And



Regina LaFrance:

for all those years, not only I thought I was a cockroach, I



Regina LaFrance:

compared myself to one I hated my face. Because that scar was a



Regina LaFrance:

constant reminder of what had happened there that night. It



Regina LaFrance:

was a nightmare. I was so sad. And I cried a lot, then his



Regina LaFrance:

mother cared for me. And she promised me that that would



Regina LaFrance:

never happen again. And I always felt that she meant it, it would



Regina LaFrance:

never happen again. But she just like any other family at that



Regina LaFrance:

time that she wanted to protect her family, not to shame her son



Regina LaFrance:

and not to shame herself possibly. And I really believe



Regina LaFrance:

that. If my parents had found out, they would also say Don't



Regina LaFrance:

tell anybody, and then we'll just cover up. So the family



Regina LaFrance:

wouldn't be shamed. Because back then that's I was no one was



Regina LaFrance:

allowed to talk about anything of that nature.



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And as you went into your teenage years, you



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carry this in silence.



Regina LaFrance:

I carry it in silence. And to make matters



Regina LaFrance:

worse, my last two or three years of high school, he was



Regina LaFrance:

actually a teacher at the high school. And he was the history



Regina LaFrance:

in a Portuguese teacher. And I never talked to him again. And I



Regina LaFrance:

never did any work for his class. And he always passed me.



Regina LaFrance:

I always he always gave me passing rates. But I never



Regina LaFrance:

talked to him again since since that time. But even during my



Regina LaFrance:

1112 years old, my parents still made me go to church. It wasn't



Regina LaFrance:

until a little later. Maybe possibly when I was 1314. I



Regina LaFrance:

refused to go to church. And that's when my father and I had



Regina LaFrance:

a falling out. My father was so disappointed with me as a



Regina LaFrance:

teenager, that he could never speak with me again, or direct



Regina LaFrance:

his war to me. I lived in the same house. But we never talked.



Regina LaFrance:

And when I was 18, I had the opportunity of coming to the



Regina LaFrance:

United States. So I left I never looked back. Good. Did your mom



Regina LaFrance:

and dad or even your sister they didn't know. Nobody knew. Nobody



Regina LaFrance:

knew even now. Even now I'm 60 years old. My sister is 63 years



Regina LaFrance:

old when she found out about this. And when she found out



Regina LaFrance:

that I was going to write my book and publish my book, she



Regina LaFrance:

asked me why now. Why are you having your Why are you putting



Regina LaFrance:

yourself through this exposure to the world? And I explained to



Regina LaFrance:

her why because I want to create awareness. So other children



Regina LaFrance:

possibly don't go through something like that. And she



Regina LaFrance:

understood. She understood she she asked me a lot of questions



Regina LaFrance:

and she understood and she supports me now. My main concern



Regina LaFrance:

is that little girls and little boys as well go through



Regina LaFrance:

something like this because the mean vicious, creepy people out



Regina LaFrance:

there are always going to be coming around looking for an



Regina LaFrance:

innocent child so they can get their way with them. And the



Regina LaFrance:

parents can never believed that another human being would hurt



Regina LaFrance:

their children that way. But they do.



Howard Brown:

So, tell me about putting your memories and your



Howard Brown:

thoughts in writing this book. You told me that you regained



Howard Brown:

your ladybug, it was healing for you. How long did it take? And I



Howard Brown:

mean, I know it just published out, you know, it's available on



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Amazon in February. What was it like writing and coming forth



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with with all these feelings that have been deeply buried for



Regina LaFrance:

in 2015, when I had my flashback, I wrote about



Regina LaFrance:

two years,



Regina LaFrance:

eight to 10,000 words. But at the time, I didn't know how to



Regina LaFrance:

write a book, I didn't think I could put it together. So I put



Regina LaFrance:

it away. I put it away. And I never, I never looked back, I



Regina LaFrance:

was too shameful still, to talk about it, I didn't want people



Regina LaFrance:

to look at me as that cockroach, a person that was less than I



Regina LaFrance:

wanted to shine. So I just had this, this image of myself on



Regina LaFrance:

the outside that I was wonderful. But on the inside, I



Regina LaFrance:

felt always sad, and depressed, and no self esteem on the



Regina LaFrance:

inside. So in 2000, I believe in 2019, I was talking to a person



Regina LaFrance:

and that woman told me that she was a book editor. And jokingly



Regina LaFrance:

I said to her, Oh, maybe you can edit my book someday? And she



Regina LaFrance:

said, What did you write about? And I did tell her and she said,



Regina LaFrance:

I'm gonna come over, if it's okay. And I'd like to read what



Regina LaFrance:

you wrote that day. She told me that I'd have to sit down and



Regina LaFrance:

start writing. She said, You need to tell the world, what



Regina LaFrance:

happened to you. And when I began to write, I began to feel



Regina LaFrance:

free, I began to feel alive, I began to feel that burden of



Regina LaFrance:

keeping that secret and being a victim started to enlighten me.



Regina LaFrance:

So when I was done, and I went back home, in my, in my mind, I



Regina LaFrance:

went back home to the place where I was hurt, and shameful.



Regina LaFrance:

And I retired my victim badge. I told the priest, that he no



Regina LaFrance:

longer rents any space in my heart, in my mind, in my soul.



Regina LaFrance:

And I said, You go now, and I'm relieving you are releasing you,



Regina LaFrance:

for me not for you, you have to go find your peace anywhere you



Regina LaFrance:

want. But for me, I am now free. And I discovered the self love



Regina LaFrance:

and shine like a diamond feeling. And then my mission



Regina LaFrance:

became from wanting to create awareness for to keep children



Regina LaFrance:

safe, but also to spread the light to spread the happiness



Regina LaFrance:

for people that may still be hardened inside.



Howard Brown:

Well, we definitely have that we're



Howard Brown:

aligned and we want to illuminate and shine shine that



Howard Brown:

as well. You mentioned when I asked you about the ladybug in



Howard Brown:

the cockroach, that in 2015, there was a young girl that did



Howard Brown:

not want to go to summer camp. And that triggered that little



Howard Brown:

girl in you that she was probably being abused by someone



Howard Brown:

at camp a camp counsellor, or somebody right? And she did not



Howard Brown:

want to go. I would say that you are really now trying to what



Howard Brown:

signs should families look for, to protect their children from



Howard Brown:

from this abuse? Because I have done very little research. But I



Howard Brown:

heard that abuse usually happens from someone close could be an



Howard Brown:

uncle, it could be a family member, a brother, it could be



Howard Brown:

somebody could be it doesn't have to be just a male could be



Howard Brown:

a woman to what what do they need to look for.



Regina LaFrance:

So for a young child, boy or girl, if they say



Regina LaFrance:

they don't want to go somewhere and if they cry, and they want



Regina LaFrance:

to hang on to mum or dad's leg. Be very aware, because children



Regina LaFrance:

love to go places. And children love to play in and be involved



Regina LaFrance:

in activities. If they don't want to go, that's number one.



Regina LaFrance:

If they shy away from someone, that's another sign. Children



Regina LaFrance:

don't know how to speak verbally, especially if the



Regina LaFrance:

abuser is telling them if they if you tell anybody, I'm going



Regina LaFrance:

to hurt you. This is our special secret. I'm going to hurt you



Regina LaFrance:

more. I'm going to hurt your mom or your sister or your brother.



Regina LaFrance:

So the first one would be if that child is clinging to mom



Regina LaFrance:

and dad and just does not want to go and if you ask what's



Regina LaFrance:

happening, sweetie. And that child doesn't say anything.



Regina LaFrance:

That's it, something is happening. Now a young teenager,



Regina LaFrance:

well, 13, if they went from having good grades and being a



Regina LaFrance:

happy child, and now something is happening, they are going



Regina LaFrance:

through something, whether it's bullying at school, or they have



Regina LaFrance:

an eating disorder, or they may be doing experimenting with



Regina LaFrance:

drugs or something like that, you need to pay attention. And



Regina LaFrance:

you need to take time off your busy schedule, and spend time



Regina LaFrance:

with that young boy or young girl to find out what they're



Regina LaFrance:

doing. If there's stress going on in the home, and the 12 1314



Regina LaFrance:

year old, is not getting what they need from mom and dad. They



Regina LaFrance:

are suffering, and they're looking for attention someplace



Regina LaFrance:

else. So we need to be very aware, take the focus off



Regina LaFrance:

ourselves. Because a mum and dad might be even considering



Regina LaFrance:

divorce, they may be in a very stressful job situation, they



Regina LaFrance:

may be having financial difficulties, it could be a



Regina LaFrance:

number of things, that young men and young lady they're going to



Regina LaFrance:

suffer as a result of what mum and dad are going through. So be



Regina LaFrance:

very aware, because that's a very critical age 12 1314 For



Regina LaFrance:

young girl or young boy, to just go down the wrong path. And, and



Regina LaFrance:

once they hit that bottom, and they suffer some trauma, when



Regina LaFrance:

they are 1819 20, they're gonna carry that on. So those are the



Regina LaFrance:

things that I would say, if you are in charge of raising a



Regina LaFrance:

child, it could be a teacher, it could be a daycare provider, it



Regina LaFrance:

could be grandparents, it could be foster parents. It could be



Regina LaFrance:

anyone if a child is around and that child is so unsigned,



Regina LaFrance:

showing signs of distress, that's when you have to say some



Regina LaFrance:

things out. If you're a teacher, and the child is falling asleep



Regina LaFrance:

in the classroom, there's something there's something



Regina LaFrance:

going on, on that child's life. And those are the things that I



Regina LaFrance:

want to create awareness.



Howard Brown:

Thank you for sharing that. What are you doing



Howard Brown:

now in your daily routine that's helping your healing.



Regina LaFrance:

So, right now I am doing gardening, I am doing



Regina LaFrance:

wonderful, beautiful recipes.



Regina LaFrance:

I am speaking with people that I would never speak with before.



Regina LaFrance:

Everywhere I go, I shine, someone will look up at me and



Regina LaFrance:

I'll smile said hi. And people immediately just say hi back,



Regina LaFrance:

people give me a lot of compliments. Now, because of the



Regina LaFrance:

way that I just walk around, I have people come across the



Regina LaFrance:

store, just to tell me that they like my hair, or, or or



Regina LaFrance:

something like that. And I immediately make a connection.



Regina LaFrance:

So what I do now, I do a lot of listening. And a lot of



Regina LaFrance:

observing. We have two of these into these. We have one of



Regina LaFrance:

these. And that's what I do. Now I smile a lot. But I talk a lot



Regina LaFrance:

less now. I like to listen, I like to know what's going on.



Regina LaFrance:

I'm very observant of what's going on around me. And I as I



Regina LaFrance:

meet people, I can tell almost always the ones that have



Regina LaFrance:

something and they want to talk. They want to talk. Most of them



Regina LaFrance:

they will want to talk to me along and they want to tell me



Regina LaFrance:

their secret. But I will tell you this that when I mentioned



Regina LaFrance:

the healing, you lit off glow, your smile your shine. And so in



Regina LaFrance:

my book in shining brightly I wrote what you just told me



Regina LaFrance:

about your healing process. I call it we call it all something



Regina LaFrance:

different. I call it finding your happy place. Yes,



Howard Brown:

finding your happy place that your stress free zone



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that brings you joy in your life. Yes, mine's the basketball



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court. But I also love hiking and biking and I love nature.



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Some people like as you said, cooking, art, yoga, meditation.



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I always say find your happy place and go there. And also



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what I take back from that as your awareness now is so fine



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tuned. Yes, it's really really fine tuned. Would you like to I



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mean, you speak in the book about Emotional Freedom. share



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it share more about how you're gaining emotional freedom now



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that you've come and shared, shared Shayla Who is you? And



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you are Shayla



Regina LaFrance:

Yes.



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What would you share about how to achieve some



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emotional freedom.



Regina LaFrance:

So some people might say to me, Well, it's good



Regina LaFrance:

for your Regina that they were able to find your way. But I'm



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still living with my abuser, or my parents are my abuse abusers.



Regina LaFrance:

Or somebody might say you have the ladybug years with your



Regina LaFrance:

father. All I remember was my parents being alcoholics and



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being abusive. So I am very blessed that I can go back and



Regina LaFrance:

remember my Ladybug years, what I say to these people, is look



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in the mirror and find something that you love, you love to do.



Regina LaFrance:

And when you can get out, either get away from your abuser or



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find a little bit of time, go and go do that for yourself.



Regina LaFrance:

Whether it's hiking, or gardening, or go, I don't know,



Regina LaFrance:

go go to the theatre, or go draw somewhere, find that time to be



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alone, and write down the things that you love. And then one at a



Regina LaFrance:

time, baby steps, go to you to pull up the IAM affirmations and



Regina LaFrance:

start telling yourself I am I worthy, I am wonderful. I am



Regina LaFrance:

enough. When I listened to those for the first time, when the



Regina LaFrance:

YouTube video voice said I am enough, I broke down. And now I



Regina LaFrance:

want to tell everybody, you are enough. You too can shine.



Regina LaFrance:

Because we have to go love who we are inside. And when we love



Regina LaFrance:

who we are, what I did was I created an imaginary bubble



Regina LaFrance:

around me. And anybody is allowed in my bubble. But they



Regina LaFrance:

have to bring smiles, love sunshine, and just pure pure



Regina LaFrance:

love. You can be negative, you can complain, you can say



Regina LaFrance:

whatever you want. I'm not gonna say anything, I am not going to



Regina LaFrance:

engage, and you're not coming in my bubble.



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I want to add to that I talked in my book about



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isolation. And I understand that I call that walking in darkness



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to learn from the darkness. But I don't want people to stay in



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that if you stayed in that isolation. So long, Regina, it



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was just for years and years and years decades who stayed in that



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darkness. So I don't want people to stay there too long. The



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other thing that I advise in my survivorship coaching is to be



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selfish in your time of need. And the other thing is to seek



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help, but also to take the spotlight off yourself. I found



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by me when I was able to help others. I wasn't always thinking



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about cancer and thinking about my mortality or thinking about



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I'm not going to be able to walk my daughter down the aisle. But



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when you lift up yourself and get yourself in a place where



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you can lift up others that makes the world a better place.



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And that that's one of my mantras and all that certainly



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agree. So I want I'm going to I'm going to actually put the



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sunglasses on here we're going to enter in part of the show



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here called the shine. Oh look at those fancy. For those that



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are listening. Regina is wearing some really cool sunglasses and



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I've got my shiny metallic white glasses on as well. This is the



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shining brightly spotlight. Regina tell people the best way



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to get a hold of you. And then share a little bit of



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inspiration with me and kick it back over to me to close out the



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show.



Regina LaFrance:

Okay, so LaFrance media.com It's LA and



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France like the country media.com la France. You can



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read about me, you can read everything about my story and



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details. If you'd like to, you can reach out to my publicist,



Regina LaFrance:

through the website, and Facebook, Shayla, the book that



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does all and go to YouTube and look up shayla book trailer. So



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you can watch my seven minute video. And if I could leave



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everyone with something is look in the mirror and say I am



Regina LaFrance:

enough. And remember we have two of these and two of these in one



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of these. So let's listen more. Let's observe more and no



Regina LaFrance:

response is a response. You don't have to react to



Regina LaFrance:

everything that you hear or everything that someone may say



Regina LaFrance:

to you that you may not like let them handle what it is that they



Regina LaFrance:

like or don't like, instead within yourself with love for self



Howard Brown:

Beautiful? Well, I thank you. I know that the book



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is, it's intense. It's powerful. It teaches. It's your heart, and



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you are a shining Ladybug. And so thank you for being here and



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sharing your story. And I don't know, you probably helped



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countless people and your book will be made into a movie. I



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feel it. I feel in my bones.



Regina LaFrance:

Yes.



Howard Brown:

Yeah. So thank you for watching or listening, the



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shining brightly show, I give a shout out to the people that



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sponsor and lift me up my publisher financial publishing,



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read the spirit magazine, my podcast house, the amplify you



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network. And just thank you for your support. And you can reach



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me at shining brightly.com And you can find out about my book



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and you can find out about my speaking my motivational



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speaking, and this lovely podcast and my advocacy which is



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so important to me, which is supporting entrepreneurship and



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Babson College, supporting the cancer world, go get screened,



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don't get cancer, live a healthy lifestyle. And lastly,



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interfaith relations that makes the world just a better, more



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well rounded place when you know the other so, as we always say,



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to close the show, we hope that you will shine brightly for



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yourself. Go lift up others in your neighbourhoods in your



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communities, and the world will become a better place. Thank you.



Regina LaFrance:

Thank you